I was gone primarily because there was a problem with my website and this weblog was blank page. I got frustrated fixing it and I have a horrible Qahr attitude towards frustration. Oscar wrote frustration is deeply motivating for him and I’m trying to implement that in me. I get easily and fast demotivated and if things, well, people too, do something that ruin my plans, i will fly miles away in another galaxy and it will take me very long to come back. Once there was a problem when i developed my slide film and all the negatives came out magenta, I didn’t use my camera for 2 years after that. They say the first step is acknowledgment.

This is an image i made for Phantom Frequencies that was played at eos radio and TOWN on Radiox in Frankfurt. It is one-hour mix of my field recordings from a trip to the small village of Pfordt in Schlitz, close to Fulda in Hessen, Germany, where we stayed in a house belonging to a church built in 1281 with an organ from 1849. Listen here.

My recent workshops with kids opened new windows to me self observations. when i work with them it feels i’m in another dimension, way faster and chaotic which reminds me more and more how i function better in chaos. It is interesting and exciting to improvise and have to respond in the moment, that is not my strentght, yet exteremly pleasurable. What i love the most is that there’s nothing wrong, there’s no adult to police or form a frame which feels quite fresh after living in Iran and Germany, where controling and policing is embedded in the belly of the society.
Anyways it’s the best practice to take the process as value rather than the product.
I believe my practice is the work and the value is what i learn through thinking, connecting, and making.

The world of unknown is endless.