Mozafar is the instrument I made last year.

Today S came to my studio and we made some noise. I hooked up cables and things to Mozaffar and they all were screaming and laughing. It sounded so good that I wondered if it’s me or Mozafar?

I got to spend my excitement, my excessive excitement.

Sometimes I think I could keep things more under control if I was less excited.

What it brings me the most is the feeling of the present, the exact moment I’m living in, to the extent that it overtakes everything else, everything else have to idle. My desire and my excitement together is fire. a fire that can make warmth or burn down.

This is on my way to studio, one day i will climb it, when i find out how.

Today was very emotional. My stubbornness saved me 1145 euro. It paid back the stress, all the work and the time I spent. Recently I have to make many life changing decisions. 

When did I grow up this much?

It is full moon and I made two gifts, a little one for A that I have a bromancehomoerotic crush on and one for M who I met very briefly and her generosity and big heart made me wanna cry.

I wonder if my carrier should be a gift maker?